My earliest experiences of being rejected, literally rejected from play groups in kindergarten, screwed me. Public school was the same, I was always the outcast. I made myself the outcast.

This rabbit hole goes very, very deep. Some of my most self-destructive life choices, were culminations of compounding past trauma. Keeping things brief, everything from my relationship problems, to my videogame addiction, to my career choice, to the people I’ve chosen as my partners / friends, to my mental health issues, has been 90% self-inflicted.

I think I’m going to be okay. Just observing my progression over the past few years, I went from completely unable to socialize, to developing decent social skills, to getting my business running (albeit on wings of psychotic rage), to finding emotional stability. I’m finally stable, though not very happy. I eat too much junk food for example.

I’ve made some very weird choices in an attempt to heal this trauma. I want to be done with that. I want a better life, to have the strength to support others like I’ve been supported.

The Sinnercomics deal is going well.

I’m paying more than ever, which is making Sinner very happy, and I’m gaining conversions faster than ever. At current pace, we should have much greater resources in 2019.

God bless Nutaku’s lifetime revenue share payment plan!

I’m cutting back on new projects until we’ve pushed out some of the more recent ones. We should have our first game releases this spring. When Dren returns, I’ll launch, and expand my Nutaku guest blogging hustle. Things could get crazy, I’m already burning cash like mad setting up a future of great opportunities.

I’m still in “slow mode”, working less hours, just thinking about things. When things start going fast, we won’t slow down. There’s no more breaks on this rape train!! 😀