There’s people in this world so full of pain, their aura emanates venom into their environment, like a pulsar. Poor sods from the ghettos especially, are so traumatized, there’s no saving them from a lifetime of chaos. They are violent, addicted to drugs, sex, trapped in a life of madness. I’m not hiring ghetto kids anymore, after all the drama my little business has suffered. I am not supporting anyone from a poor background again. These people’s darkness has infested my life, it’s made me a dark, unhappy, terrible human being.
I have this gift, that when I spend enough time with someone, I start hearing their thoughts. I’ve met some folks whose silence literally screams at me. I feel abused in body, and soul, just by their presence.
I’ve always been highly empathetic. It’s kind of a flaw, that I have trouble keeping distance, which is why my social circles have always been small. I want only the deepest of connections, which sadly filters out a lot of otherwise great men and women, who just cannot vibrate on my level.
I remember vividly this girl in high school, whom I only shared 10 minutes together. We talked during recess, it was the only time we talked. She was artistic, intelligent, a peculiar personality. But after class started, a sickening dark weight dropped into my stomach, and the feeling lasted for literally half an hour. I’ve never felt so disgusted in my life. I never spoke to that girl after that, because something about them had set off warning bells in every cell in my body.
I wish my blogs could emanate more positive feelings. There’s always this miasma of anxiety in me. It’s really sad. I’m hopeful that now that I’m dropping several toxic people from my life, my joy will return.
Thanks for reading. Happy fapping! -OA